Thanks for Giving

This year has been kinda rough for me as far as my health goes. Apparently my thyroid has been having issues for awhile. It may have been caused by childbirth or it may have been caused by the car wreck. In the Spring I started having heart palpitations, dizziness, feeling like I was going to pass out, heart racing, high blood pressure. I was given Synthroid to get things back on track however the Synthroid made me feel worse. So I went back to the Dr that gave it too me and was told I was fine. I didn't feel fine so I had the Dr refer me to the specialist. After waiting the summer to get into the specialist I was put back on Synthroid. Again, my heart starts freaking out and I feel worse. So I call the specialist back and was told I could go on a heart medicine but that if I went off the heart medicine it could cause a heart attack and they were going to be out of the office. Needless to say I didn't feel comfortable with that. I ended up going to an urgent care doctor that has changed me from Synthroid to a new medicine called Armour Thyroid. But she did warn me that while my body is adjusting itself I will feel the heart palpitations. She gave me some blood pressure meds but told me to try to get myself off of them in 3 weeks. My witch doctor agreed that my body was too sensitive to Synthroid and says that Armour Thyroid will be better. However, I am still experiencing the heart issues. It makes it hard to enjoy the things that I should be able to enjoy. I have a hard time finding the strength to battle through sometimes and find it easier to just stay home.

Why do I mention this? It is because I have realized that through this all I have had the best husband by my side. He comes to every doctor appointment he can. He drives me everywhere I need to go, even to Logan to the witch doctor. He puts up with my interruptions and freak outs. He picks up where I leave off. He takes care of what he can. He has even had to drop what he was doing to be by my side. He has put up with me waking him up in the middle of the night. And rarely has he grumbled or complained. He has just taken it...for way to long. And I...I have taken him for granted. Honey, I want you to know that you are the best man I could ever ask for and I just don't know what I would do without you. I forget to tell you that! In this season of Thanksgiving I want you to know how grateful I am for you in my life. You are my everything.

I have also realized that I take for granted my family. I have two wonderful children. Granted one is a toddler that is into everything and sometimes drives me crazy but I love to watch him learn and grow every day. The other is a wonderfully smart 7 year who is trying too hard to grow up. I have wonderful parents who are there for me whenever I call. Whether it's to run Kennedy down the street to school, to take the baby for a few minutes, to sew and mend my clothes, or to be there for support and love, they are there and I am so grateful for that. I love you Mom and Dad. I have wonderful in laws too. They are there for anything we ask too. They care just as much as my own parents. And lots of grandparents and extended family who love and support us too.

I am grateful for a job that allows me to work from home. I don't know how I have ended up in such a special situation but I am truly grateful for the opportunity. And I am grateful for Brian's stable job and that he loves it. He is close to home with great hours and good pay. It's stable with good friends. You can't ask for more.

I am grateful for the house I have and the food I have to eat. I am grateful for the country that I live in and the people who protect it. I have often wondered how wife's of soldiers do it. I would have a very hard time "giving up" my husband for years at a time.

I am grateful for my beliefs. I know that there is a Heavenly Father who loves me. I am grateful for the preisthood. I have probably used up my quota of preisthood blessings but am grateful that I have a husband worthy and willing to use his preisthood powers.

I just wanted to take time this Holiday to say "Thanks". Thanks for Giving!